First Vlog and Update

Hey guys! I wanted to make a video for you guys instead of a written post because I feel like the reason I haven’t been too active lately is too important to try and fit into a blog or a twitter or discord update. I just wanted to make sure that you guys know that I am okay and as each day goes on I learn to live with the fact that someone close to me has passed away. Like I say in the video, we don’t “get over” the death of someone we love, but learn to keep going on with our lives.

I have had incredible support throughout all of this from close friends and family as well as the amazing Twitch community. You guys make get up every day worth it and always bring a smile to my face. I love you all and see you soon!

Watch the video here!

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Twitch Live-stream Makeup Creations!

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From time to time I include my other passion into my Twitch live streams, Makeup! I have been a crazy makeup lady ever since I was 12! It wasn’t until recently I started being a tad more creative with my makeup. By creative I believe these images speak for themselves! This page will be updated as soon as new looks are made.

If you are interested in helping out I have set up an Amazon Wishlist that consists of all makeup items. If you decide to help out, it really means so much not only that you donated but that you see my work worth giving to!(


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First donation goal was hit!

It would be a lie if I were to say money doesn’t help. However I never expected to be given this opportunity to get myself such a piece of luxurious equipment because people have donated from the goodness of their own heart. I always tell my viewers that one of the best things they can do for the stream is to spread the word, and it’s free! But of course, if someone wants to donate I won’t exactly reject it! I am just being honest, and in all honesty I never thought I would get the support that I have gotten thus far. What we have is an incredible community consisting of kindhearted people from all over the world.


Below is a list of all the people who have contributed to the donation goal and how much in total. Thank you all so much for making this dream come true.

-WookieeMario $160.00

-sistik123 $55.00

-Angel_6571 $45.00

-DonnyFresh $45.00

-ConkyJ20 $40.00

-Splicer45 $25.00

-Sam17101 $20.00

-Ov3rfield $15.00

-Aquamatey $15.00

-AllisonRoadGame $10.00

-mottci $10.00

-MattC2388 $10.00

-captainxdanger $5.00

-beanburrito420 $5.00

-ZombieVomitz $5.00

-bRAD2333 $2.50

-ilovekillbill $2.00

-FNA $2.00

-Theundeadguy $1.00

The reaction video

GamerGate and my opinion

Emilie Goralski's photo.
Emilie Goralski's photo.
As a gamer who happens to be a female, while extremely late to the party, I feel like I should speak my part on the matter. What matter? Well first let me say this is my opinion derived from my own personal experience, so I am just voicing an OPINION. The matter of “feminists” invading the gamer community with some kind of bull about how video games are demeaning blah blah blah.

As some of you know, I have been an avid gamer ever since I was 5 years old. Since the very beginning video games have played a role in my life since my early years all the way to today as a 24 yr old. As I got into my early teens (maybe earlier) I started to feel self conscious about my body as well as just myself in general like most girls. But not once have I ever felt like I wasn’t good enough because of a video game character. In fact, the common example these “feminists” like to bring up is the whole “Hero saved the Princess” trope, saying that the Princess wasn’t good enough to save herself. To be honest, I saw it as the Princess having power over the Hero. Think about it, the Hero goes through how many dangerous tasks to rescue her? If anything she has power over him! I have never felt less of a person because of a video game in my life.

If anything, I have wanted to better myself due to video game characters. Seeing strong female game characters kicking butt really encouraged me to become stronger myself, and to start working out. But feminists do not recognize female video game characters as strong or empowering. Basically what they are saying is that characters like Samus, Lara Croft, Jill Valentine(All Resident Evil females), Lightning, Alyx Vance, Elena Fisher, Faith Connors, Clementine, and Ellie are not strong, positive, and intelligent female video game characters. Just to paint a picture of how ironic this is, I attached two photos of last months Game Informer(taken from Imgur) of Anita Sarkeesian in an interview talking about the very same issue of there not being any strong females in video games. On the cover was a picture of Claire and Moira from Resident Evil Revelations 2, who are extremely strong and empowering.

This whole “feminazi” bullshit is getting extremely out of hand, and in all honesty, is making women gamers(and women in general) look like EXACTLY what they are fighting against; weak, whiny, and can’t hold their own. They act as if they are the only people who are affected by body image, which I then would like to ask, “Have you ever seen He-man, Batman, Superman, or Captain America?” I guess not. As for being over-sexualized, yes it gets annoying here and there with many impractical sexual attires but it never made me feel like I was a lesser gender in any way.

So anyway, I felt like I should talk about it since I am a female who has been around games her entire life, and has never personally felt demeaned in any way from video game characters and themes. I grew up surrounded by strong women AND men, so while I did feel self-conscious and had very low self-esteem(not due to games), I have overcome it now that I have matured, and I suggest those women, “feminazis”, stop playing the pity card and mature as well.